Standing Nowhere
A podcast about waking up — not to new beliefs, but beyond them.
What happens when we stop standing on any fixed idea of who we are or what life means?
Standing Nowhere explores spirituality, mindfulness, and the mystery of being human through honest conversation and reflection.
Host Jacob Buehler blends story, humor, and real-life experience as a working father and seeker, drawing from mysticism and contemplative traditions to point toward what can’t be captured in words — presence itself.
No dogma. No certainty. Just curiosity, compassion, and the ongoing discovery of what remains when there’s nowhere left to stand.
If you’ve ever questioned everything and found peace in not knowing — welcome home.
Episodes
24 episodes
The Ornament I Forgot: On Gratitude, Regret, and Waking Up to What Matters
This week, I couldn't lock in a guest—and honestly, I've been struggling to lock in much of anything lately. Backsliding on habits, drowning in self-blame, stuck in the gap between where I am and where I want to be.Then, while decorating...
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Episode 24
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31:30
Dying to Yourself: A Late-Night Conversation on Trauma, Fear, and Letting Go
This one is more raw, intense, and emotionally unfiltered than usual — because real healing rarely looks clean. A late-night conversation between two brothers doing their best to stay present in the middle of real life.
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Episode 23
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53:34
Losing a Brother, Finding Purpose: A 30-Year Friendship with Artist Raphael Rozenberg
What do we do with grief, synchronicity, and the strange ways love keeps showing up?In this episode, I sit down with one of my oldest and closest friends, Raphael “Rafi” Rozenberg. We met in 1997 and have lived through almo...
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Episode 22
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1:21:05
Understanding Ego: The Illusion of the Separate Self
You've been defending this "you" your whole life—getting offended when criticized, proud when praised, anxious about what others think. But what if the self you're protecting doesn't actually exist?This episode explores ego and the illus...
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Episode 21
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32:08
Why Rest Isn't Optional: Finding Peace When You Can't Afford to Stop Working
I can't afford to take time off. But I also can't afford not to take time off. That's the bind I've been in—and maybe you're there too.This week, I hit rock bottom. Burnt out, behind on bills, working 50-60 hours a week and stil...
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Episode 20
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30:27
From Loneliness to Solitude: Finding Yourself When All Your Friends Are Gone
In your twenties, it’s easy to feel like you’ll always belong somewhere — a friend group, a workplace, a Saturday night ritual that feels like home. But what happens when those circles fade, and you suddenly find yourself everywhere in the city...
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Episode 19
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47:10
How Laughing at Scorpions and Mosquitoes Saved My Spiritual Life
Three years ago I was broke, sharing an apartment with scorpions, and couldn't see a way forward. Then I discovered that laughter—the real, spontaneous kind—can be a powerful spiritual practice.In this episode we explore why ego and humo...
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Episode 18
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36:30
What to Do When Fear Is Paralyzing You (A Practical Guide from Rock Bottom)
Working 63-hour weeks with no AC in my car, behind on bills, applying for IT jobs I'm not sure I'm qualified for, and terrified every podcast episode isn't good enough. That's where I've been the last two weeks—and that's what this episode is r...
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Episode 17
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27:39
Why You Can't Stop Wanting Things (And How to Finally Be Free)
I've quit alcohol and cannabis. Kicked my energy drink habit that was costing me $150-200 a month. But I still can't stop buying ice cream at the end of brutal work days. And I'm obsessed with making this podcast perfect, going back to edit old...
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Episode 16
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36:56
Why Your Spirituality Might Just Be Ego in Disguise (Spiritual Materialism Explained)
Kill the Buddha?In this episode I unpack the famous Zen koan to expose spiritual materialism—the way ego hijacks spirituality and turns it into another identity. I explore the subtle traps: virtue signaling on Instagram, treating meditat...
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Episode 15
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45:19
Why Smart, Strong People Stay in Abusive Relationships (ft. Therapist & Author Kate Mageau)
"Why didn't you just leave?" It's the question everyone asks about domestic violence - until they hear Kate Mageau's story and realize how trauma bonds, gaslighting, and the cycle of violence make leaving the most dangerous moment of all.
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Episode 14
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53:29
Stop Overthinking and Just Move: Why Analysis Paralysis Is Killing Your Dreams
I delayed launching this podcast for almost a year. I was prepared after six months, but I kept researching, planning, perfecting—until my 42nd birthday forced me to face the truth: I was wobbling. Analysis paralysis had me stuck in a living de...
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Episode 13
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49:21
How My Mom Survived 11 Years of Abuse, Raised 5 Kids Alone, and Found Faith in the Fire
My first podcast guest is my mom, Diane Buehler—and this conversation goes places I never expected. She shares stories I'd never heard in detail: growing up on five acres in Indiana eating the pigs she raised for 4-H, hitchhiking as a teenager ...
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Episode 12
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1:11:23
Why I Flipped Off a Driver 45 Minutes After Meditating (And What Anger Actually Is)
Forty-five minutes after meditating, feeling centered and peaceful, I flipped off a driver who cut me off on the freeway—with my kids in the car. He slammed on his brakes. I almost rear-ended him. I flipped him off again. He braked harder. The ...
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Episode 11
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48:58
The Harder You Try, The Worse It Gets: Effort, Striving & Letting Go
This is episode 10—a milestone that's making me nervous as hell right now. I get the heebie-jeebies every time I sit down to record. I turn into a motor mouth. I overthink every word. And that's exactly what this episode is about: the harder yo...
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Episode 10
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1:00:58
The Silence You're Afraid to Face: Why Daily Practice Isn't Optional Anymore
I was outlining this episode on a Friday night during a pickup at a noisy sushi bar, surrounded by laughter and music, quietly drafting notes about stillness. The irony wasn't lost on me—but that's exactly when the teaching comes, in the chaos ...
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Episode 9
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36:19
Reverence to Be: Finding Gratitude When Life Feels Like a Failure
I was carrying a 40-pack of water up three flights of stairs in 115-degree Arizona heat, sweating through my shirt, for a customer who barely tipped—and I felt grateful. Not sarcastically. Actually grateful. Because this is my life right now: a...
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Episode 8
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50:10
Life Is But a Dream: Finding Your True Self in Art, Loss, and Letting Go
This isn't a music review—it's a spiritual reflection on a piece of art that changed how I see life and death. Avenged Sevenfold's Life Is But a Dream is a meditation on losing yourself, dissolving the ego, and discovering you were nev...
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Episode 7
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35:32
Everything You Love Is Dying: How to Let Go Without Falling Apart
I threw my sunglasses on the ground and watched them shatter. My brother had just spent all day helping me fix my car in brutal heat—again—and when we took it for a test drive, there was a loud squealing sound. My brain panicked. I hadn't slept...
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Episode 6
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42:32
Stop Forcing It: How Stillness Changes Habits When Willpower Fails
My clutch pedal sank to the floor halfway through a Chipotle delivery. I heard a pop, the pedal hit the ground, and my income vanished instantly. I'm a gig worker—no car means no money. It's Sunday as I record this, the Kia dealership doesn't o...
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Episode 5
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42:16
Going Beyond Words: What Mysticism Actually Means (And Why You Need It)
When I tell people I'm into mysticism, they think I'm talking about Harry Potter magic. But mysticism isn't supernatural—it's experiencing reality directly instead of through the conceptual filters we've layered over everything since childhood....
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Episode 4
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47:24
Go Ahead—Try Not to Think for 10 Minutes (A Mindfulness Experiment)
Go ahead—try not to think a single thought for the next ten minutes. Let me know how far you get.This episode is different. Instead of me giving you a word salad about reality, I'm inviting you to experience yourself for yourself through...
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Episode 3
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45:52
Standing Nowhere: Why Clinging to Any Belief (Even Atheism) Keeps You Trapped
I reached a point where not existing seemed more appealing than existing. That's a sad state of mind. But something shifted—a paradigm inside me changed everything. Now I'm under just as much stress (maybe more), but I have space inside. Joy. E...
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Episode 2
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1:03:36
I Don't Know What I'm Doing (And Why That's Exactly Where Peace Begins)
On my 42nd birthday, I finally hit record. As the title suggests, I don't know what I'm doing—but three years ago, I hit a point where I had this dark thought: "I would love it if a car would just take me out." Not suicidal—just exhausted. Work...
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Episode 1
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45:39